A Decade

Ten years, a decade in time, only 1 tenth of a century, but yes it is still something worth celebrating. Ten years ago I wed the love of my life and started an adventure of a lifetime. Over the years we have shared many beautiful memories, gone through challenges, shared hopes dreams, goals, given life to three wonderful children, and many, many other adventures. And through it all we have stood by each other. He was always by my side giving me loving support and I am happy to return the same to him. We have each changed and grown so much in the years and yet deep down he is still the same sweet boy I chased after. Always loving, accepting, forgiving and generous. A wonderful way to spend a decade I think.

I look around at our home and at our kids and even at myself and see how the years have passed. My kids are older, in school, walking, riding bikes, getting older and growing up. Our house had been renovated a bit to accommodate our growing family and after ten years it finally feels like OUR home. I see time in myself,  fine lines and weight in places it was not ten years ago. My body is different after the birth of our beautiful children and my loving husband still appreciates me. Yes time has gone by, but the amazing thing is when I look at him, when I look at us, I still see the same two young kids in love. The same ones who stood together on that day with all the hopes and dreams of a happy life together. They were meant for each other, they found each other, and they couldn’t wait to start their lives together as husband and wife. And today after all the years and things we’ve been through I still feel the same. Excited to start my life together, to see what is next for us, to witness love grow stronger for each other and our children.

Yes the years have gone by, but like a sappy card, my love still remains and it is stronger then ever. It really is true. huh WOW. I am honestly looking forward to the next 10 years, to see what the next decade has in store…… A graduate, a teenager and maybe a deck and new garage by then ; )  Hey a women’s allowed to dream right? LOL  All jesting aside, I could not have asked for more. I am very fortunate and look back on the last ten years with great fondness.

Happy 10th Anniversary BAY!

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It’s Starting.

Well at the end of this Sunday, I feel pretty good. I feel like this week was much more productive then they have been in a long time. Although my goal of getting up early everyday didn’t always happen, I managed to find a few minutes each day to accomplish a small project that I wanted to do. I’ve discovered this is very important to my emotional and mental health. I am a lists person, and when I can’t seem to get anything done on my lists, then I start to stress out. And a stressed out mom makes for a very grumpy house. And this house has been quite grumpy as of late. So I’ve started to change that, and it’s going to get better.

Each day as I give myself a few minutes to do a task or project, I feel more productive, and these tasks are not just household things, they are projects that I have been thinking of for a long time. Things like sorting family photos, working on my Doula Certification, reading a book, sewing projects, exercising and the such. They are things that engage my creativity and for me heal my soul per-say. They make me feel rejuvenated and give me energy to be the Mom and Wife I want to be. It makes me feel like I can accomplish what I set my mind to, and not just do the things necessary to get my family through the day. In a sense they remind me that I am a person with hobbies, passions and goals.

Recently I felt a little like I had lost myself, that I only had one role and was beginning to feel trapped in that role. Don’t get me wrong, being a mom is the greatest thing I’ve ever done, but with it’s challenges and not outlet for myself, I was beginning to feel sad. Then I remembered I do have things I love to do, but somehow I need to find the time to do thoses things again. If I just have a few minutes each day, I could maybe get some satisfaction knowing that I have something that is for me. And so I did just that, a few minutes each day.

What developed in the course of the week is I found myself spending more and more time working on my Certification. Research, websites, pictures, reading, all to do with my DONA Doula Certification. This passion is growing in me, and it’s starting to surface more and more. I think it about it more often, catch my self getting caught up in a blog about someones birth story, joining groups, following blogs and magazines and making contacts with people.

I knew 8 years ago after the birth of my daughter, that a spark had been lit, but I didn’t know that I would feel this passionate about birth choices, birth coaching, women’s rights and being an advocate for empowering birth experiences. I want to learn more, read more, grow my library of resources, and ultimately figure out how to someday reach my goal of becoming a Midwife. It’s a dream that is growing and one that both me and my husband are excited about.

So maybe with a little time each day, I can build a foundation for my dream, re-awaken some hobbies, get back in shape, and feel more satisfaction. I think everyone in my house will benefit from that.

Oh and if you know anyone in my area who is interested in a Doula, please let me know!