Temperature Changes

Well after the most wonderful and relaxing week on sandy beaches in Mexico, we flew home just in time to get home and hunker down before the snow hit. We turned up the furnace and made soup for lunch while the snow blew all day. With a difference of almost 60degrees I am very proud of my husband for bundling up and going out in the storm to look after his cows. Me and the kids, we stayed in our PJ’s ALL day.

Our week in Mexico was so relaxing and quiet and just what we both needed. We slept the first night for 15hrs straight… no word of a lie. We were celebrating our 10years of marriage, yet everywhere we went people asked and called us Honeymooners… So that was nice.

We were ready to come home on Sunday and see our kids, afterall it was our oldest daughters Birthday and she’s not so little anymore. And as happy as we were to see our kids, I couldn’t help but wish we were still back in Mexico, especially when I woke up the next morning to see knee high drifts in front of my garage, and blowing snow so we couldn’t see the end of the driveway. Sigh….. Mexico was so lush and Warm… I hate being cold, but more than that even though I feel rested and that my husband and I have connected again, I don’t really feel rejuvenated the way I had hoped. When the reality of house and kids and cooking and cleaning hit me Monday morning it sucked my energy and fogged my brain. Maybe it was just everything all at once, snow, cold,kids, house…. but I’m a little sad that I can’t put on my bikini and go sit at the beach for one more day. Oh well. The smiles and giggles of seeing our kids after a week warmed my heart, even if there has been a bit of crying and yelling too. And today the snow has stopped blowing and the trees look nice. I put on the Christmas music to put me in the mood and am cleaning  the house so we can decorate. Christmas does have a way of rejuvenating me, there are many things about it I like, so that will be good to focus on. Since the kids are home because school has been cancelled for two days I thought today Christmas decorating should be fun, unfortunately the christmas tree is in a shed across the yard which is drifted thigh high… so the tree might have to wait. 

It’s funny, when we were leaving Mexico all the resorts were decorating for Christmas in a very festive style, and I thought how strange it was to see fake trees decorated and Palm Trees with Christmas bells hanging from them with beaches in the back ground while the sun shines brightly. Christmas means snow to me, well I got snow didn’t I??? lol. Although I could do with out it being 30below.

Last week was wonderful in the sun and this week in the cold will be busy preparing for Christmas. Talk about Temperature changes…

It’s another Birth……day.

Another whole year has gone by. Wow. Happy Birthday Me. I told my Dad last night that I’m fairly certain as we get older the years go by faster. At least it seem that way. So much has happened this past year that is wonderful to celebrate. My baby boy turned 1, I attended 7 amazing births, we went on Family trips, Holidays with a friend, and at last the harvest is in the bins for another year. So much to be thankful for, much to look forward to.

But today I want to do one thing. I want to acknowledge the women who worked so hard to bring me into this world, and the man who stood by her side always as they witnessed the birth of their first born. To my Mom and Dad on this anniversary of my Birth Day, THANK YOU! And thank you for everything after that until this day. Your love, support, understanding and for being brave in trouble times. Thank you. Today it is my wish that you two know how much I love you and how thankful I am for all the hard work you did for me AND my brothers.

Love your Daughter.

PS. Expect a phone call from me also : )

Super September

Well so far it’s been a SUPER start to September and tomorrow marks the 1st Anniversary of my Blog!!!! Really? Already? Wow!  A pat on the back for me! I may have not got as many posts in as I wanted to, but it is really nice to have a place to journal and share some of our silly little life.

So lets see…. what has made September so SUPER so far.

1. Kids are back in School. And yes we had an amazing summer, but I was glad to see routine back into our lives.

2. I signed Caitlin up for Gymnastics which she is really excited about.

3. Deanna made it to the second stage of her appliance. So we now have fewer trips to the dentist and the improvements have been positive.

4. I was blessed to be part of another beautiful birth of a first baby and witness also the birth of a family.

5. My girlfriend asked me to come on a totally last minute get away to LasVEGAS!!! to celebrate her birthday. And even though it rained almost everyday we were there (lol) we made the best of it, and as I browsed the pictures tonight they brought a smile to my face. Thank you so much for those wonderful memories my friend!!!  I’d do it all over again.

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6. The anniversary of my blog. I didn’t realize it till I sat down to write this post, but then I was really excited. I hope to grow in my writing more over the years. Sometimes inspiration hits me and I can write something really deep, other times it’s just a quick post to update my craziness.

So thank you all of you for following and reading my blog, for sharing my moments and memories, and for not boooo-ing me offline… hehehe. 

Super September, lets keep up the good work. Lets keep the momentum going as we push forward into harvest on the farm and head into what I call birthday season….If you don’t remember check out my early blog.. Autumn Arrives…. My husbands birthday kicks off a series of 9 birthdays in the last months of the year.

 

May Madness….

Well I can’t believe it’s the last day of May already. For our family May had been very busy both with the kids and on the Farm.

We started out the month with a few really nice days, and right away my husband was anxious to get into the field to seed, but first we had a little celebrating to do. My baby boy turned One at the beginning of May and we had a great family dinner then a beautiful afternoon in the park complete with Farm themed cake and cupcakes. I still can’t believe my baby is one years old. His birthday was a special day and he was surrounded by love which is a beautiful thing. When there are days I am feeling blue, these are the moments I need to recall; pushing the kids on the swings in the sunshine and sitting on the living room floor sharing in the giggles of a new toy.

So after his birthday the month just seemed to fly by. When the clouds would part and the sun would come out my husband disappeared into the tractor to seed barley and canola. And when he wasn’t fixing equipment there were cows to look after and fence to fix. Even though the rain slows his progress, I welcome it somedays, cause it’s the only time in spring I get to see him.

On occasion my girlfriend and I would get a run in as well, which feels really good, but I am surprised how hard it was in May to fit in just a hour a week of fitness. I think I finally have a few babysitters at my disposal now so I can be organized to get ready for the two mud runs I’ve registered for this fall. AHHHHHHHH. What am I thinking??? I’m not a runner. But I hear its great for getting a flat tummy, so sign me up baby.. LOl.

This month I also had the honour of joining a couple as a Doula for the birth of their baby girl. We also had; Playschool Field trip and Graduation for my middle Daughter, A Doula Training workshop, Hypnobabies Course which was truly amazing information, My sister-in-law planting the garden, yard work, the trampoline out, a trip to Leduc, dealing with Deanna’s dental appliance(Which is a whole other blog post)  and my son gaining his confidence in walking. Oh yes, he is walking around the house so I know he’s officially not a baby anymore, but more a toddler now.

My oh my, no wonder I felt a little silly some days, it was truly a busy month in our house. And as June begins, I look forward to a wonderful summer with friends, new babies(even a cousin for our kids, WOOT WOOT) Camping, more running and workouts and just soaking up the sunshine. Maybe a few days of sprinkler fun and swimming pools when all the kids are here. I think I would be even happier if I could get some painting projects and reno projects done too.

I hope as you look ahead into June, July and August you see Sun and Fun too.

Imprinting

“All the lines that held me to my life were sliced apart in swift cuts, like clipping the strings to a bunch of balloons. Everything that made me who I was…….. disconnected from me in that second – snip, snip, snip – and floated up into space.

I was not left drifting. A new string held me where I was.

Not one string, but a million. Not strings, but steel cables. A million steel cables all tying me to one thing – to the very center of the universe.

I could see that now – how the universe swirled around this one point. I’d never seen the symmetry of the universe before, but now it was plain.

The gravity of the earth no longer tied me to the place where I stood.

It was the baby girl……………….”

Stephanie Meyer – Breaking Dawn

Eight years ago today, my life changed forever. An event occurred that would affect every thought, every decision, and every choice I made. It changed how I saw myself, my husband, my parents and even my friends. It changed the way I LOVED.  As I look back over the last eight years I realize that that there is nothing on this world like the love of a mother. Eight years ago today I looked into the beautiful blue eyes of my first born baby girl and the role of Mom was bestowed on me.  Never again would my world be the same, for I was a Mother now.

There are many sayings and quotes out there that show a Mom’s love. A favorite of mine is “No one else will know the strength of my love for you. After all, you’re the only one who knows what my heart sounds like from the inside.” Beautiful. But as I lie awake in bed this morning remembering the day of Deanna’s birth like it was yesterday, I thought, hey there is someone I know who has described what happens to a Mom when she looks into the eyes of her newborn baby, and for all you Twilight fans, you know what I mean when I say Imprinting!

Now correct me if I’m wrong, but as I read the passage from Stephanie Meyer’s book this morning, I did not think of the first time I saw my future husband or even the first time he told me he loved me, granted those are significant events, but I thought of each of my children when I held them for the first time. They changed my universe. They changed what mattered in life, they helped me see the big picture better. As a Parent one thing seems to matter above all else, seeing your children truly happy. To have them safe and healthy and for them to know they are loved. The similarities to what Stephanine Meyer called Imprinting in her series seems familiar now. I understand where the idea came from, for she is a mom too. She understands the special love a parent has when they see their child for the first time. This is something only a parent can understand. A beautiful, Innocent, Powerful, Life changing love.

I think I appreciate my own parents more now that I am a Mom. Now I know where the care and concern comes from, and how they love each of us. I understand their hopes and dreams for us and why they are so happy when we are happy.  I see how they made sacrifices for us, and worked hard for us, and taught us important lessons that would benefit our adult lives. Now I want to do the same for my children, to share with them and teach them the things in life that will bring them happiness. Not money or wealth, but things like honesty, respect and loyalty. That’s the kind of Mom I want to be.  When I was a teenager, I never dreamed that the role of a Mom would mean these things. It’s so  much more then just having a baby of your own to look after hey? The role of Mom means you think about yourself less and catch yourself thinking about your children and their future more than anything else.  Each decision you make now not only effects you, but it effects them as well. It truly is a huge responsibility.

I definitely “Imprinted” on each of my children when I saw them the first time, when the title of Mom was given to me, but I think it takes time to actually become a Mom. It is something that you constantly work at. Eight years ago I was given that title, but it’s only in the last few years that I finally feel like I’ve started to become the Mom I want to be. Don’t get me wrong, I have always loved my children and understood what truly mattered, but it has only been recently that I really took that role and quote “Jumped in with both feet”. Now I look at my own sacrifices differently. I see things in a different light and I really appreciate my time with my children more then I every have. I truly want to share in their joy and fun, and teach them those life lessons. It may have taken me almost 5 years to start figuring all this out, but I am glad I’m not 5 years too late.

Today I remember Deanna’s birth with pride and joy. She is a beautiful, smart and wonderful child. I am so glad she was the child that made me a Mom. I am glad that I am becoming the Mom I want to be while she is still young. I am so happy and proud of my little girl, the girl who changed my life, the very center of the universe. Happy 8th Birthday to my first born. I love you, Dad loves you and we pray for your happiness today and always.  May you always remember we are here for you, our hearts belong to you, for you have made an “imprint” on them that will last an eternity. Smile, Laugh, Love. Have a wonderful day Bunny. You are our sweetheart.

Love Mom. Love Dad.

 

Autumn Arrives

What an absolutely perfect Autumn day in Canada today. It was warm and a light breeze and the colorful leaves in the trees are breathtaking. I was out and about today, headed to the city, and was driving the beautiful back country roads. I believe that fall can only truly be appreciated on these back roads, where the coulees and hillsides are full of changing leaves and the fields are being harvested by combines driven by people like my husband.  The ditches turn a burnt orange, not from the grass, but from the leaves that fall there. Many times today I thought how wonderful it is to see these fall landscapes in person, not just on a calendar, and these areas are picture perfect in my mind. My neighbor brought me a beautiful bouquet of sunflowers the other-day in many colors. As a florist, fall was always my favorite time of  year for all the many colored sunflowers. Yes the many beautiful  signs of autumn are all around us, but in Canada, another sure sign that summer is over and Autumn has arrived, is the furnace kicks in around 4am. I heard it the other morning as I was putting the baby back to bed after a nighttime feeding.  And as strange as it seems, for me the sound of the furnace means the seasons have definitely changed.

This time of year also means putting away the fans we used twice this summer and hauling out the room heaters.  Are we crazy to live in a country where houses need heaters 9 months of the year, and cars HAVE to have a block heater? Where we complain how hot it is in August and wish we had air conditioning for like one week each year? Can we really justify the price of airconditioning? I have a friend who did! He said it was +33 Celsius in his house this summer for more than two days. Lol. So…. in went the air conditioner, just in time for the change of season.

Yep we live in a country where warm jackets hang on our hooks all year, and I’m still not sure why I bother to put the toques and mitts away for summer. But my mom often says how blessed we are to experience the different seasons, to see the trees change colors, and the fresh white snow in winter, and then the new grass peaking through the snow in spring. The changing seasons in Canada and particularly in our province are beautiful and breathtaking if you take a step back and just look.

When I was young the changing seasons even inspired me to write a poem and I submitted it into a contest. My poem was accepted to be published in a book compiling all of  the winning poems. So I guess you could say I’m published??? I wonder if I could find that book now on Amazon.ca, Wouldn’t that be strange.

Anyway I got sidetracked. I’ve made myself a warm drink and am cuddled in my housecoat thinking of all the beautiful things I saw on this fall day, and then I am reminded of another reason I enjoy Autumn. In my Family it is birthday season (if there is such a thing) In my immediate family there are 6 of us who have fall birthdays. Including, ahhhh, my own! But I’ll just focus on everyone else for now. It really is true that the older you get, birthdays are not such a big deal. Maybe it’s that we enjoy our kids birthdays more as we see the joy in there faces and feel the love in our hearts for what we created. Maybe it that we understand that life will continue around us no matter what age we are, or maybe there are less “milestones” after that coveted 18/ 21. I know there are “big” birthdays, but as an adult, your birthday isn’t about the gifts you get, or the icing color on the cake, or even where you go or what you do, but whats most important is who you are with. Your loved ones, your friends, your family.  I hope that I can teach my own children that it’s not the gifts that matter, but the people who bought them.

Well I’m raising my coffee mug, to a toast, to a wonderful season and hopefully a great harvest for my husband too.  And to his birthday too and my mom’s and my dad’s birthday and his dad’s and, well you get the point. Autumn is a great time of year, even if it means summer is officially over.